Posts tagged LOA
What I'm Reading: The Four Agreements

The first time I read “The Four Agreements” was a few years ago. I don’t remember exactly when I picked it up or why but given the general time frame, I was most likely searching for some kind of wisdom or knowledge - searching for some answers. I’m discovering as of late that there are occasions which you go searching for answers and are not where you should be to receive them. Think of it like when you tell someone to meet you at a certain spot and when they don’t show up in the exact moment you expected them to, you wander off and then they show up at the designated spot and they go off looking for you and it continues. Granted, these instances are fewer now that we have cell phones but for those that recall the home phone struggle, you know. Anyway, I’m sure the reason Don Miguel Ruiz’s book didn’t resonate as much with me before as it has in a second reading and heaving highlighting. Seriously, the number of Post-Its in this thing.

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Rescheduled Opportunities

Today was supposed to be a post about the meaning behind my tattoos. Supposed to be. Wrote the post, planned it out, typed it into my schedule… but as you can see, it isn’t. And that’s okay. Sometimes plans don’t go accordingly. How many people have had to cancel and reschedule plans due to this deluge we’ve been having in the Central Valley? I could hardly see ten feet in front of me on the road this morning. That post will still be coming shortly but my good friend, Malachi, inspired me to write this one.

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What I'm Reading: The Element

I have watched Sir Ken Robinson’s TED Talk, “Do Schools Kill Creativity”, several times. As someone who initially started university majoring in elementary education and someone who taught English in a preschool in Korea, perhaps I was pulled in by my experiences but no matter your personal interests, we all have had experiences in schooling as a student and given that the model of education hasn’t much changed in over one hundred years in the United States and Great Britain, I think it’s safe to say there are notable similarities. It’s an industrial effort in which students are churned out to be productive members of society based on, well, production. But the Industrial Revolution has long since passed and, according to Robinson in The Element, the way we educate our children should have kept up with the times.

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Why I'm Not Moving to Los Angeles

Because I had agreed to get on board with the aforementioned television show and decided to seize the opportunities within my reach, I also decided to buy into the idea that in order to be successful in film and/or television, you have to live and work in Los Angeles. Now, I do want to be clear that not everyone who has been encouraging to me and my creative endeavors has touted this idea and those who did, I believe, were well-intentioned. However, I had heard it enough from people around me and the myriad of professionals sharing their knowledge online: “If you really want it, you have to live here.” And I do. I do want it. But...

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Feeling Far Away From Myself

The past year has been a whirlwind. By this time in 2017, I had placed in one screenwriting contest for the London Film Awards and made it to the Top Ten in ScriptFest. If you had told me then that I would advance in several more and win another by the time the year was up, I’d probably think you’d gone mad. In addition to that, I was asked to be part of the development team for a television show scheduled to pitch to major networks. All the time and effort I had been spending on my writing was paying off with tremendous opportunity and honestly, in a shorter timespan than most spend in their pursuit of a Hollywood career. I was closer to becoming a professional screenwriter than I previously believed was even possible for me just a few short years ago. And I yet I felt incredibly far away from myself. Now, I know that might sound quite confusing so let me try to explain.

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Back to Fresno County, Kicking and Screaming

The first time I lived in Fresno County, I was four years old. I lived in a three-bedroom house with my grandparents, my mom, and my younger brother while my dad was stationed elsewhere, in a town so small in 1993 it didn’t even have a high school. I shared a room with my mom and my brother and sometimes slept on the floor; we were waiting for our house to be built in a town a half an hour away. Back then, houses here didn’t cost nearly as much as they do now. When we moved away to Arizona when I was nine, I was heartbroken. But as I got older, I never imagined myself living here again and certainly not under the circumstances that forced my relocation. In my mind, Fresno was too small, too underdeveloped, and too foreign for me to feel in the least bit like I could ever belong after living abroad in cities with millions of residents. I even missed the Fresno State University application date on purpose my senior year. If I was going to go back, it would be kicking and screaming. Well, that was not the case. Although there was quite a lot of crying involved. When my marriage fell apart in 2014, I needed somewhere safe to go and start over - and that somewhere was with my family in Clovis.

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